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[Sat 6 Oct 2007 [12:33pm] |
I'm alone in my apartment, again. Last night i passed out really early. We bought 4 bottles of extra dry. I got drunk realz fast. plus newly weds is boring. UM, so the drain pipe fell down on the side my living room window is on when it was raining last week... now they're fixing it. there are two men on those metal ladder things for construction workers right next to my window- banging with hammers. IM FUCKING PISSED IT HURTS MY EARS. "my dad makes me put cocking on even after we sauder it!!!" "no! ductape!" HAHAHHAHA these guys are assholes.
ps. JS is a scumbagggggggg I have aids now.
I donated to the aids foundation yesterday. ask me how much....
-sara pancake mohr
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mange pour vivre (11:22:51 AM): sorry i had an important phone call lbitemylip (11:23:57 AM): i dunno what to say right now. mange pour vivre (11:24:18 AM): youre a free bird lbitemylip (11:24:22 AM): i just woke up and need some food..so i dont wanna say anything to be a dick. mange pour vivre (11:24:28 AM): you do whatever you want whenever you feel like it mange pour vivre (11:24:59 AM): and i cant keep up lbitemylip (11:26:21 AM): i picked you up the other night and laid there next to you for 2 hours holdig you when you were drunk before i fell alseep. lbitemylip (11:26:27 AM): cuz i like you. lbitemylip (11:26:49 AM): after you were being an ass about thing cuz you were drunk. mange pour vivre (11:26:58 AM): i wasnt being an ass mange pour vivre (11:27:06 AM): i was telling the truth lbitemylip (11:27:46 AM): you hang out with dumb ass guys, you hang out with guys that like you and you think that cuz you're pretty im just gunna sit back kiss your ass and say ok that cool?
lbitemylip (11:30:09 AM): sorry i know people.
lbitemylip (11:31:12 AM): look i like you. i think you're a really sweet girl when you let yourself be.. lbitemylip (11:31:39 AM): but what you want and what you're looking for. i dunno if im right for that. mange pour vivre (11:31:53 AM): ya i know mange pour vivre (11:31:57 AM): i already said that lbitemylip (11:32:25 AM): let me ask you something tho... lbitemylip (11:32:39 AM): do you REALLY want this to be it? lbitemylip (11:32:53 AM): like done and you just stop talking to me? mange pour vivre (11:33:10 AM): well lbitemylip (11:33:39 AM): well what, im not some dumb ass kid you have to pay games with sara... mange pour vivre (11:34:11 AM): you want a little girl to follow you around lbitemylip (11:34:20 AM): no i dont!! lbitemylip (11:34:38 AM): i wanted to just hang out with you... mange pour vivre (11:34:50 AM): ok then we can be friends lbitemylip (11:34:55 AM): i liked bing more then just friend with you, and only you. mange pour vivre (11:35:22 AM): yeah but i cant just sleep with you and then let you go galavanting the fucking world mange pour vivre (11:35:26 AM): thats crazy
mange pour vivre (11:37:24 AM): we cant be honest and say im too good for you? and you can't at least pretend to be good enough for me? mange pour vivre (11:38:07 AM): ill just not tell anybody we slept together mange pour vivre (11:55:20 AM): ok well take care mange pour vivre (12:08:00 PM): nice myspace mange pour vivre (12:09:36 PM): im jumping off my roof today
mange pour vivre (12:19:47 PM): somebody who doesnt yell at you??? mange pour vivre (12:20:51 PM): well then im changing mine to "somebody who doesnt just fuck me and then runs off to san fran with girls who wanna be the girl on his who id like to meet" mange pour vivre (12:20:55 PM): sound good?
mange pour vivre (12:49:53 PM): keep blaming the world for your problems.. but you've only enough intellegence to make someone like me hurt. not enough to actaully do soemthing with yourself. and i feel bad... for you. mange pour vivre (12:50:11 PM): i shouldnt be the one upset and wanting to hurt myself.. i'd sugjest you do that. mange pour vivre (12:50:16 PM): bye lbitemylip (12:50:54 PM): sara... lbitemylip (12:51:09 PM): dont ever message me again. lbitemylip signed off at 12:51:14 PM. lbitemylip is offline and will receive your IMs when signing back
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[Tue 21 Aug 2007 [4:44am] |
Do you know this person? Report IM Spam sehr ill (4:33:30 AM): !! mange pour vivre (4:33:45 AM): hey sehr ill (4:35:08 AM): what are you doin at this ungodly hour mange pour vivre (4:36:21 AM): well... i had taken paul and my bestfriend graham to a club and was gonna pick them up at 2. i fell asleep cos i have kidney stones and still offered to take them and pick them up... and they took off with three girls. mange pour vivre (4:36:36 AM): so when i kept calling paul he didnt answer and all i couldhear was fucking a car full of girls sehr ill (4:36:43 AM): bleh mange pour vivre (4:36:47 AM): and i drove to fucking santa monica looking for him sehr ill (4:36:53 AM): paul is such a fag mange pour vivre (4:36:59 AM): he wouldnt tell me where he was cause he was so drunk sehr ill (4:36:57 AM): thats a bust mange pour vivre (4:37:20 AM): finally found him.. picked him up, he was MAD at me for picking him up cause graham got to stay and hang out mange pour vivre (4:37:35 AM): and THEN he fucking blamed me for ruining his life sehr ill (4:37:50 AM): ccmon mange pour vivre (4:37:53 AM): not to mention calling me a whore the WHOLE way home sehr ill (4:38:05 AM): YOU should be starting the drama in this relationship sara mange pour vivre (4:38:27 AM): because i had sex with my ex bf while we were together (still not together, may i add) sehr ill (4:38:45 AM): ahhhh mange pour vivre (4:38:45 AM): what does that even mean? mange pour vivre (4:38:53 AM): we werent**** together mange pour vivre (4:38:55 AM): sorry sehr ill (4:38:57 AM): how long ago was that? mange pour vivre (4:39:05 AM): uhh a month or so ago mange pour vivre (4:39:13 AM): we broke up long time ago sehr ill (4:39:23 AM): hm mange pour vivre (4:39:34 AM): we were just haning out.. he wrote me this letter today how we could "Fix" thing mange pour vivre (4:39:38 AM): things sehr ill (4:39:41 AM): hm mange pour vivre (4:40:22 AM): and i told him when i dropped him off i would talk to him when i picked them up.. because i was gonna tell him that i loved him and i wanted to work shit out.. but then because i was 20 minutes late picking them up.. somehow graham convinced paul to leave mange pour vivre (4:40:31 AM): and go with him to some girls party mange pour vivre (4:40:38 AM): with three nasty sluts sehr ill (4:40:50 AM): haha mange pour vivre (4:40:57 AM): all yelling in the background "he's with us!!! he can't leave us!!" sehr ill (4:41:11 AM): hes such a girl though sehr ill (4:41:21 AM): too many cosmos dropped his ass tonight or what mange pour vivre (4:41:23 AM): hahaha... oh can i also add, i was letting graham stay at my appartment sehr ill (4:41:34 AM): bleh mange pour vivre (4:41:50 AM): wow i get bent over a fucked sideways by TWO this time mange pour vivre (4:41:54 AM): im a lucky girl
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[Tue 3 Jul 2007 [11:50pm] |
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Moving to deep L.A. august 1st. hollller. also, just found out today, i'm flying to NY on Thursday. God do I love my life? Yes.. yes i do.
Oh.. i didn't mention i'm also Single, and sexy. HA Uh-Oh >_
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[Sat 9 Jun 2007 [9:44am] |
GOOD MORNING BEAUTIFUL ARIZONA!!!
my mom and her fiance finished the pool yesterday, now we're waiting for it to clean itself. Went to costco, got two bottles of riesling to hold me over.. made pork ribs lastnight, BBQ'd and watched the pool fill up. today i'm gonna get some sunshine! run around baithing suit day! my soon to be new cousins are coming over today. =)
I miss my Natalie <3 Love you girl
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[Fri 8 Jun 2007 [8:05pm] |
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Thing is: I thanked God yesterday and today for the hurtfull, yet, appropriate answer to all my searching. And I also thank god for reminding me of life's lessons... I will never think i need to change myself for anybody to LOVE me, ever again.
If i haven't already made it clear enough: I will never be seeing you. I will not answer your phone calls. I will not think about our time together.
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[Wed 6 Jun 2007 [4:57pm] |
my designer friend just called me... her t-shirts are everywhere, Barney's, Tokyo.. and whereever else she said... they're doing different colors next month which means another look-book. She also said they printed the whole look book i did like tooooooooooo many times and i'm basically everywhere. I'm stoked. Anyway... shes good friends with the owners of Geisha House and Ledue? Imma get a job there.. maybe. If it happens i'm moving straight to hollywood. start making 500.00 a night. BAM!
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[Tue 5 Jun 2007 [11:35pm] |
It is so easy to give me what I need.. HOW THE FUCK DO YOU KEEP GETTING IT WRONG?
HOW!?!??!!?!?!?
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I don't have really.. anybody added on my livejournal I trust but, then again, I don't trust anybody... here it is.
When you get to a point in your life where you accept who you are and want to embrace it, find your counter-part in friendship or love (either one) do you stop trying to change yourself in general? or do you stop trying to change yourself to make somebody happy? no matter how much i feel like the "huge bitch" or just shitty in general; i'm coming to a wall. What if there is no changing? I can't change him... or even if i could... i'm the one with all the problems. ALTHOUGH I as a life-liver, can't really believe that. Makes me want to die thinking about all the things I want to change about myself since I've been with him, and to think about all the things i've already changed to make him love me.
Is it love? Tonight i'm leaning towards No. Because in humanity, people that love eachother don't want to change everything about eachother. Am i right when i ask if they also don't want to tear the other's genitals off for being such a ... what do you call somebody who completely disregaurds you in public, flirts with girls, and blames "one" for not pulling their drunk-pre-pubestent-15 year old in a 20 year olds body, off of them?
the other side: i could go on for fucking months about it. I'm really good at complaining. I love it when people feel bad for me. This is apparent. thanks to some of the good things that he has confronted me on... But is it that? Is it that i love to complain THAT much or is something seriously wrong here? Since when did i ever let my gaurd down, and even if i had, I always pretend i didn't. and since WHEN did i become such a puss? We fight and fight and "argue" and plege thing on and on and on and on without almost zero happy moments. I've forgoten what its like to have a good realationship.. maybe because it's never happened.
Its never happened because I DO NOT ALLOW IT. this is our 3rd problem. when the fuck do I allow it? BAM! do i just get married one day and say "hey! i allowed it!"??? no probably not. I need somebody to explain myself to me. COS GOD, LORD, WHO AM I?
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